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Yesterday I was ready to quit FaithWorrks again.I could not get pass my physical pain.But God had other plans for me.I am now going to do my internship from ACU library via internet at class.I will be searching for books on laptop.That way I can do the work without all the walking.I am filling out the paper work to see about putting Jacob in the Boys Ranch.He is so full of anger and pain cause by his Dad and biological mom.He is taking his anger out on me and his siblings at home.It hurts me to do this but I love him enough to know I can't give him the strong spiritual father figure he needs. So far I've been told I'm a terrible Mom to do this.But when my older son Charlie needed help I didn't get it for him.Now he is a bum on the streets in California. I have pray long and hard about this and I know this is what he needs.I pray he will know How much I love him and that I want the best for him.He has a very loving heart but right now he can't see past his anger and hurt.He was taught from a young age not to respect me. And now with his two younger sister being adopted by foster parents.He just hurts so much.We tried for a year to get the girls but it just didn't happen.Please pray for us